This is insane. I feel so... abandoned. Forsaken. There's already intense change going on in my life, so it doesn't really matter what happens where I live now. I'll be gone soon anyways, but I never expected this to happen.
Why are all the people I need most being taken out of my life at a time when I really need them? Or maybe I don't, and God is trying to make a point. Whatever, but it hurts.
First it was sister moving out. Then it was my best friends. I moved/they moved and we just lost touch for the most part. Then my brother moved out and that was very sad for me. Then another really good friend moved away... then another left, then my youth pastor moved away... Then today, I got word that the senior pastor of my church is leaving.
At the same time it doesn't even really matter to me, because I'm deserting everyone to when fall comes. But I'm still so shocked! I won't have anyone left to come home to at Christmas.
It kinda makes sense, though. God knows what He's doing, so I'm not that worried. He'll give me new role models where I'm moving... He'll help me understand His plan or have peace with it. I know I can handle it now, but it just... hurts.


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I'll get more pictures up soon... I've just been very unmotivated lately.